Hellandback

Damp, dirty blond hair fell over Silas Bane's young face. Bleary eyed from too much beer and some other "party" substance, he looked through the sharp spotlights and saw at least a thousand people frothing for his entertainment. He looked over at his bass guitar player Kenny and he mouthed the words "let's melt their faces". With a tiny, gray, plastic guitar pick located between his sweaty thumb and middle and pointer fingers he raised that arm above his head, looked into the anxious eyes of the crowd and yelled "one, two, three, four,!" and threw his right arm over the gray and black Les Paul electric guitar and strummed with fury. The audience jumped with excitement and screamed their approval as the band ripped through a gritty song of bluesy punk angst. Silas' heavily tattoed arms and raw energy tapped into the fans' need to release and he smirked and snarled his way through the song. Maybe 50 feet away, a tall dark haired man of about 40 years old, with green eyes and a weathered countenance, semi-long hair and crows feet starting in his experienced face and a body that had several arm tattoos of it's own; watched quietly, with arms crossed. Although his body language said a lot,  kept his opinion to himself. No cheering, no singing along, no clapping. Dean Hellenbach had seen it all before. Someone young, with some discernible talent, whipping a booze and possibly more fueled music hall into a frenzy. He wasn't being critical. He was observing; seeing how the young singer with dirty blond hair, and snarky vocal delivery went about showing his art. Dean had been Silas, twenty years ago. Further back in the concert hall, much further back, almost next to the beach, that was over 100 feet away from the stage the dirty blonde haired singer raged on, stood another dark haired man. He was older and his hair was much shorter. His face showed time. More than middle aged. Wearing a dark blue suit without a tie, and no sign of tattoos he watched Silas bane and Dean Hellenbach. With eyes as black as charcoal, and a stare as deep as an ocean, the odler man smirked ominously. He had definitely seen all of this before. You could even say he was the man who made this moment in time happen. When Silas and band Agent Tangelo finished his set before the beach crowd, the oldest man would put his plan into action. His plan was twenty years in the making. His plan was to change the lives of Silas Bane and Dean Hellenbach. It was time.




*bloggers note* This is my first page of 175 to 200 covering about 50,000 words. I am writing a novel over the month of November. It will be called Hellandback; a rock and roll horror story. Stay tuned, thanks for reading, hope you like it all. Starting November 1st, my story will be posted as it is written over at http://www.nanowrimo.org/

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Bust A Move

Since the day Bobina and I married, almost two years ago, we have talked about moving. We met, wedded, blended our familyand adopted a golden retreiver in less than a year. The entire time we acknowleged that our town house was on borrowed time. When we got back from our short vacation earlier this month we started talking about it more and actually looking around for a place. We saw this two story house with hardwood floors and a fenced in backyard. It seemed like home. Like our marriage, our family, our dog, and well, everything else we are about, we wasted no time in getting this house. Today, we handled the paperwork and sweet talked the authorities involved into giving us the keys three days early, Friday, so we could move in before I hit the road again to Houston on Monday.

Omitting the address, size of the bedroom, and what we paid, I can tell you that the place has 3 bedrooms, a garage with inoperable doors, which we prefer so we can store stuff and have the girls use it to play in, plenty of area inside and out for Buddy, the dog, and lots of hardwood floors, which Bo and I love.

Most importantly, it's our first house as a family. The kids are so excited, you'd think we were moving into Toys R Us (or Abercrombie and Fitch for Tay) and their enthusiasm has really helped Bobina and I with the stress of moving. It's only about a mile or so from where we live now, so the kids won;t be negatively affected, school wise. Follow me on twitter @TLanceB and I'll tweet moving pictures and settling in pictures.

Thanks for reading. The blog is averaging over 70 hits a day and I appreciate every click of your computer. By the way, through my crew over at http://www.velvetverbosity.com/ I have signed up at http://www.nanowrimo.org/ a writing site where in the month of November I'll be writing a 50,000 word novel over a 30 day period. So, I'll be traveling for work, moving into a new house, and writing a book. That's what you call busy. Don't worry, I'll stay medicated.

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Hey Jealousy

Her walk was quick. Her normal, casual warmth replaced with an unbidden fury. Looking for answers to questions she never wanted to ask the man she fell in love with, she burned inside. She saw him across the room talking to a woman that wasn't her. She ignored politeness and threw cordiality into her furnace of jealousy. Interrupting his conversation, she grabbed his arm, clenched her teeth, and spit "what are you doing? who is she? " He narrowed his eyes and acknowleged her mistake, "Suzann, this is my cousin, Helene, I was just telling her how perfect you are."

*blogger's note - This is my week's entry for http://www.velvetverbosity.com/ 's 100 word challenge. This week's one word prompt was UNBIDDEN. Please visit my friend's site and read the fine writers and their submissions. You won't be disappointed. As always, no wagering. My wife would like for me to run the disclaimer, while she is the inspiration for the character of Suzann, this 99 word post is fiction. Maybe. I mean, it is. I promise. Whatever.

Thanks for reading.

Heroes

My girls worry about me sometimes. The youngest ones think I need something to protect me in the car on my long drives. Carly, the six year old, bought me the Spiderman. Lyla, the seven year old, knows Green Lantern was a favorite of mine when I was their age, so she got me, him for my last birthday. I thought that the girls saw Spiderman and Green Lantern as heroes and thus, considered their "powers" real so that's why they thought I needed them. I was wrong. Talking to Carly and Lyla aka Goose and Bug, they told me that, when I was a little boy, superheroes were important so I would like having them to protect me. According to them, they don't need superheroes. They have mommy and daddy and sometimes their oldest sister when she isn't being mean. This, of course, made Bobina and I swell with pride but then we started thinking about what comic books, Star Wars people. superheroes, Disney Princesses, etc meant to all three of our kids. They told us they just liked them, they were funny, fun to watch, and fun to play with but they weren't "real". Maybe my kids are weird, well ok, they are, but I think today's children are more self aware and quite frankly, smarter, about what real life means to them.

Today, I read an article about the people who are now caretaking the Superman comic book image, changing him to be edgier, more maleviolent, moodier, and even changing his costume to a hipster vibe with a hoodie and skowl. http://www.ontheredcarpet.com/2010/10/superman-gets-hipster-makeover-in-superman-earth-one-graphic-novels-poll.html

At first I tweeted how dumb it was, but then I started thinking; if my kids don't put superheroes on a lofty perch, then maybe today's comic book writers need to make Superman less symbolic and more entertaining. Heck, I always thought Superman was an alien dork who needed to loosen up and be dark like Green lantern and a smart alec like Spiderman. I don;t know if a hoodie, bad attitude, and edgier storyline will do it, but if it makes little boys and girls more entertained, and less confused about what and hwo real heroes are, I'm all for it. I'm traveling in a rental car right now. I miss my Spidey and Lantern. Hope my Spidey sense and power ring are transferable over 800 miles. Wait, what am I saying? Hope my kids don't read this. I'm supposed to be their hero. I should have written all this in the Comic Sans font.

A Good Scare

Charles Dickens would have written a heck of a book about this weekend. It is indeed, the best of times, it is the worst of times. When  Bobina and I married, just six months after meeting, we would wa nt to move in a year or two. At the end of year two we have decided to move. The bottom line is, we have decided to find a new place to live as soon as we can.

The trip mto the corn maze was a great time. When we got there, my mother in law, MiMi, came up with a fine idea. We would split up into teams of two, and Amazing Race like, run around to each checkpoint, then find a winning team at the end. Bug and I started sprinting and we did well for a while, then I started arguing with a 7 year old about right hand turns, and hilarity ensued. We actually finished last. But, we had so much fun that by the time the story is told, say, 50 times, we won easily, and picked up million bucks. Anyway, we picked up a huge pumpkin and finished the night off with Halloween Happy Meals for the three little girls, aged 8, 7, and 6.

This is Spooky, our jack of lantern of the season. The design is by Bug and Goose. The carving is primarily my hands.

Belly, the 8 year old niece is in front, sweetheart Goose is to her left, age 6, the goofy girl in the back is Bug, age 7.

The spectre haunting our home is the ghost of Christmas future. By that holiday we will we elsewhere. The best choice is some townhouses near where our kids go to school. We also have a bead on a house near that area as well. It's a scary time around our place, but it's a good scare. A lot of our past, most of it not good, will be done away with. The idea of starting fresh and being able to do so for the holidays is exciting. I guess you can say we are living a pyschologically horror movie. This ghost doesn't stand a chance against my three daughters. Mwahahahahaha .....ha

Burying Hamlet

There is a period in lot of young men's lives where they put away their kid stuff and start new interests. Mine was between the ages of 13 and 16 when I put aside the comic books, hot wheels cars, and toys and started reading and brooding. At 14, my daughter's current age, I read Shakespeare's Hamlet for the first time. Overnight Prince Hamlet of Denmark replaced Spiderman as my idol (with some competition from The Doors Jim Morrison).

The image of Hamlet being this good man, surrounded by evil, misunderstood by even other good people, fit my whiny, melodramatic teenage personality. When I wasn't growling into fake micophones or writing marginally awful poetry like The Lizard King, I was keeping tabs on my enemies, and making speeches about morality and justice like The Danish Prince. All of this was curiously proper for a young man, but the problems happened for me, when I reached adulthood. Hamlet is a dude with serious issues, and regardless of his rock solid character, and noble heart with lofty intentions, he is destined for unhappiness. So, yeah, I followed the same path.

While I never ended up dead in a Paris bathtub like Jim or killing myself with poison like Hamlet, my emotional rollercoaster ride over the past twenty years could have been moderated by making the proper change in heroes in my twneties or early thirties. Like Hanlet, I am a moral man, burdered with an inaction due to a superhero complex that wants to save or make everyone as moral and resolute as I. It's a doomed philosophy and most adult men would figure this out early on, not me. A few years ago, while going through a divorce, I told my therapist about my self link to Hamlet and she pointed out why my past sucked and my future would be worse if I didn't learn to believe in myself, worry less ab out the flaws of others, live through those instincts and pray for those who weren't doing the same. The slap across the face began a two year trip into reality that formed a more together man that is now with my wife and children. The only unresolved issue was completely breaking from Hamlet as anything more than being a fan of a great literary work.

My favorite scene in Hamlet in the final one, where the violence is swirling, and Hamlet finally overcomes his self absorption and thinks sympathetically towards others, while maintaining his moral compass. His death isn't heroic but it's not pathetic, like say Kurt Cobain's or Morrison's. It's just. The irony of Hamlet journey is , in the end, he dies better than he lived. I have no desire to even walk beside such a fate, much less have one. At the end of your day, you have to be honest like Hamlet , although it's Polonius that says to thine own self be true, but you can't force others to look at the world the way you want it to be viewed and followed.

I relapsed with my Hamlet complex recently, nothing major, but it was a reminder that I never performed the funeral for Hamlet like I should have a few years ago. This is the memorial service. It's a great play, and Morrison and Cobain were great songwriters, but their lives belonged to them. No one should find anything but entertainment in any of them.

"To be, or not to be,--that is the question:--whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing end them?" - Hamlet

"A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself." - Jim Morrison

Rest in peace mad Prince, rest in peace.



 

What Needs to be Heard: U2 All i Want Is You

This is what I'm listening to. I am really connecting with my wife. The past two weeks have been marriage fortifying. What I have learned is that no amount of jewelry, cards, presents, you know, stuff can do what I can do for her except to show her how much she means to me.

Hope she pays attention to the lyrics.

great song

Fast

The proposal was intimidating. Suzann said yes, an emphatic, physical yes. Now her brain had to catch up. Three kids, instead of two, a smaller house instead of a larger one to accomodate the schools, then she remembered what her heart told her, she stopped worrying. She left his house and called her friends. Then she called her daughter. Delia answered, she could hear her daughter smiling. "I kind of sorta knew, mom. He asked me if he could marry us, I mean you." she said. The drive usually took 25 minutes, that morning, she was home within 15.

*blogger's note* This is my latest 100 word challenge for the awesome http://www.velvetverbosity.com/ 's 100 word site. The opne word prompt was WITHIN. I will be combining the entries into the other site http://www.writingonsteroids.com/ for a short story to be completed soon. Thanks for reading.

Happy Birthday to Marsha aka TinFoilMagnolia. See her at http://www.tinfoilmagnolia.blogspot.com/ or @TinfoilMagnolia on teh twitterz.

Gone

Frantic, I ran from the house to look for the dog. The yard looked bizarre. Pale light cast over my home. My golden retreiver seemed ghostly. He led me to the field next to our home. It was desolate, save dozens of graves with perfect granite tombstones, some engraved, some bare. I surveyed the acre and noticed the supernatural maze of relationships symbolized by rock tablets. I walked barefoot aside the dog to the first row of stones. There was no wind, no cold, the weather was dead. I read the first engravings, they were people I missed, deeply. As my dog and I walked through the strange labryrinth of forgotten, I realized the tomstones were laid out by importance. Some were necessary to see and read, others were ignored, just piles of concrete. My four legged gride began to change face and look normal. He was hungry. I awoke to the sound of the dog barking. Stunned, I peeked outside and saw a peaceful, usual yard. The past was gone.

My spine chilled, brain scrambled, I walked into the hot shower and felt peaceful. I started to dry off and the dog was back. The eerie look was back. I threw on jeans and a t-shirt and followed the golden outside. the Yard was supernatural again, this time the spirits were above ground, appearing to congregate. I turned and walked back inside. The dog followed. We were done. We were moving on.


*blogger's note* this is part of 52/250 's flash fiction site. Every week they presenta  theme, this week's is TOMBSTONES, just in time for Halloween. http://52250flash.wordpress.com/

provided I'm cool enough, they'll post this entry on their site later the week.

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Happiness, more or less

My notebooks and pads are full of stuff I wouldn't let my golden retriever, Buddy, blog. In a few hours, I leave for Houston, for work, and I will have a lot of time to think (which isn't always a good thing for me) and then I will spend four nights in hotel rooms, not sleeping, and so I will write. Whatever you don't like, I will blame Buddy.

Last week was good and bad, like most, but different. The end of the week opened my heart and mind to my wife and children more than ever. I am the luckiest son of a gun you have ever virtually known. My wife is beaufiful, funny, and special. My kids are just as much. In midst of the bad, my teenager, Tay, was the picture of maturity and cool. Of course, she reverted into teen form quickly because it was homecoming week. But her moment of awesome, showed me that my priorities had been skewed over the past few years and now they are not.

Maybe because last week's 100 word prompt from my friend at http://www.velvetverbosity.com/ was VAGUE, I am choosing to be so now, but rest assured that the storm is over, and I am head over heels in love with my wife and daughters.

If The Verve is right, in the song Lucky Man, that happiness, more or less, it's just a change in me, something in my liberty; then I'm happy. It took twenty something years, enough bad relationships to make Jennifer Aniston judgemental, and some pills, some really good pills, but I'm there, you know, the happy place, whatever.

I don't give advice, because I'm terrible at it. It would also violate the no superhero complexing agreement I made with my wife. But, if you have someone in your life, someone that you know is special, meaningful, different; make them your priority. Hold them tighter than you ever have and tell them they are amazing. Say thank you, please, I love you; a lot. Say it even after they tell you "ok, I get it". Wait, I think I just gave advice. Don't listen to me. Just be true. Be true in your instincts, your word, your emotions.

I have to go to the bank now. I promised my number one priority I would. My word with her is good.

Write ya laterz, taterz.